When you stepped out, put on clothes
That all of the sudden
Felt a little more suffocating
*A little less liberating*
And infinitely more paining
You didn't understand it
Why you'd rather be bare
Than bare the thought
Of a body that isn't yours

Innocence, shattered
Childlike vividness, flattered
Then disappeared, scattered
You knew it, you knew it well
When you were younger
They said they could tell
You didn't know what it meant
But you know it,
You know it now

You try so hard to push it away
Heat flash in a mascot
That you can't strip away
You were born in the wrong body
You couldn't explain it, not really
Your hands were too big
Your face was too sharp
And you were far from the girl

That you saw in the shower
When you looked down with a frown
Soap in hand, cold and bare
Bearing skin that shouldn't be there
You understood it now
You want to crawl right out
But you couldn't
You couldn't, yet